So sorry to hear this. I know this is an older thread but I can to relate. Growing up we were not the religious type by any means. Im now 33yrs old, I lost my mother tragically 1yr 5mths ago due to a negligent driver that she was trying to help get clean from heroin. Well with no time for me to grieve because of dealing with lawyers, finding a way to pay for the funeral out of my pocket (she had no life insurance), the list goes on and on! Well just this past November I got nailed with some horrible anxiety and I guess a bit of depression. Something I never felt before. Im still dealing with it. I don't take meds, I went the route of seeing a counselor. I will say it has helped but it is still here right beside me. I have also turned to god, recently got baptized on Easter Sunday! Big steps! I hope goes well with you. Something I found that helps is talking to someone that has experienced the same as yourself or similar. I truly does help...