Hi Rachel
Welcome to the forum. Losing a parent or any loved one is always difficult. I am hoping as time goes by you are feeling better. Sorry I am not much help. I have GAD and pulmonary hypertension (constriction of pulmonary artery and blood vessels leading to heart failure) and lupus. Because you mentioned God then I will say that in my culture we say that God never allows us a cross heavier than we can carry. I suppose we often don't know our own strength. God bless
Barbara