Thanks, both for the reassurance. To give an update, I did end up messaging the guy again, just so he knew that when I said I didn't think it would work out, it was a case of my anxiety getting the best of me. He hasn't messaged me back, but I feel this step took a great weight off my shoulders. I'm not 100% over it, which I don't think I should be. I still feel I made a mistake and need to take the time to recognize this and learn from it. I should have handled things better.

As a result of all of this, I've decided I need to make more of an effort to make some life changes.

Firstly, I need to become better at saying no and not pleasing people at all costs. I will still try to please people when I can, but there comes a point when you can start misleading people with your actions. Especially in dating. People may think you are more interested than you actually are. I have learned that the inability to say no can make someone happy in the short term, but can make both parties unhappy in the long term. If I felt the date wasn't going well I should have called it quits early and I certainly shouldn't say to expect a second date if I'm unsure at that point.

Secondly, I have also realized that I need to improve my social skills. I need to get out more and get more comfortable with people. I usually just from home to work and back home, not conversing all that much in the process and not going out on weekends. I was recommended by my counselor to join Toastmasters which is an international organization where you can learn to build speaking skills and gain self-confidence, along with other skills as well. I'm hoping to attend in the coming weeks to see what it is all about.

Finally, I learned to never make an important decision in a state of anxiety/overthinking or without sleeping on it first. Making decisions hastily or in a poor frame of mind can be one of the most regretful things you can do, especially if it is a bad decision that is hard to bounce back from.

If I can learn these lessons from my mistakes, I believe I can avoid future issues like this one. I still regret my actions. I know I hurt the guy's feelings and this still haunts me. But I never want to make a similar mistake again.

Again, thanks for your support.