Hi, I am new to this site and I'm just hoping there is someone out there who can help me. Before I proceed with my current problem I will tell a little about myself.
My name is Michael and I am 20 years old. I've been born and raised here in Florida. For the past 4 years I have suffered from debilitating anxiety and panic disorder.
It started out with common symptoms but over the years due to my own fears and no real help it has spiraled out of control. I am definitely agoraphobic as well a hypochondriac. I don't leave my house too much and I don't have a social life. I wouldn't be complaining if that made things any easier. I don't have a job and I don't drive. I dropped out of high school because of the panic attacks but luckily I recently got my ged. My persistent hypochondriasis is probably due to the fact that my anxiety and panic has manifested in TONS of physical symptoms over the years. Varieties of terrifying headaches,dizziness,near syncope,palpitations,strange sensations,depersonalization,pseudo-seizure, and most recently I have a feeling I might be getting high blood pressure. The only thing that seems to help when I am nearing a panic attack is a Klonopin which doctors won't even prescribe me because of the dangers of addiction so i get the from my mom. Don't worry, addiction is not a problem for me because I am actually scared of medications so I tend to only take Klonopin when I am at the point where I feel it's in my best interest as well as my family's so I don't have another mental breakdown.
NOW, here is my current problem.. I have been on 10 mg of Escitalopram (Lexapro) for 2-3 years now. In the very beginning it seemed to help but for the longest time now it hasn't helped me become the person I need to be. I am seeing a new psychiatrist now and yesterday she prescribed me Venlafaxine ER (Effexor). She told me to discontinue my Lexapro which is scary to me for several reasons. I have experienced withdrawals from Lexapro in the past after not taking it for a week and they were nightmarish. I thought I asked all the questions that I needed to when I was at my appt but now that I have these meds in my hands I realized that my psych didn't even say anything about a tapering schedule! She just said to discontinue.. I am supposed to start taking this medication tonight but now I am just unsure of myself. It's probably just because I am terrified of medications, specifically these long term ssri's and snri's. I've heard the horror stories and I've also heard the few successes. The main reason I am so scared of meds is because when I was 17 my old psych prescribed me something called Latuda. I had a horrible reaction to it. The following four days were filled with suffering and I was eventually taken for emergency detention at a mental health facility against my own will. I want to believe in this psychiatrist but I've only just met her and I can't help the fact that I am just plain scared. I'm scared of everything. I was a normal kid for the majority of my life but since I was 16 it's been downhill for seemingly no reason. I apologize for straying from the main topic of this thread, my mind just travels as I type.
Anyways, if there is anyone willing to give advice in regards to the medication problem or my whole problem in general it would be much appreciated. I do have many more questions but I suppose they should be for different threads. Thank you in advance