Hello everyone

[BonniePenrose]

Hi,
I'm new here. A little bit about me: I've always been a worrier, and I get nervous and freaked out easily. I cause myself so many health issues (skin rashes, stomach issues, hyperventilating). Most of the time, my Mother could talk me down off the ledge and calm me down.
She died in 2014 of cancer. So now, there is no one I can turn to that can calm me down. I'm an only child and I'm not close to my extended family and have few friends.
My Mom was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in Dec 2013 and for the past two years, starting around December, I start to think more about my Mom and I seem to be imagining that I have cancer too. I'll actually get pains that mirror where hers were that go away after the date of her death passes. (When my Mom was alive, even when we were hundreds and thousands of miles away from each other, we would get sick or injured in the same place at the same time and only find out about it afterwards. We had a very strong connection to each other._
So I freaked myself out so much last week, that I caused myself to hyperventilate and I thought I was having a heart attack and that my throat was closing up. I think it was a panic attack.
I hate getting stressed and doing this to myself. I know it's not good for my health. I'm no good at meditating, I can never get my mind to calm down.

Well, enough about me .

[Mohammed Nasreldin]

Hi, You can cool down yourself by watching youtube as i do, watch funny videos, this will allow you to forget anxiety. Add me we can chat together. And dont try to meditate, this will open more mind abilities which will drive you crazy. You will be able to see aura, Nightmares, Lights, Flashes and a a lot more hallucinations like whirlpool, grey sky etc. You may find it cool but it will drive you crazy.

[BonniePenrose]

Hi Mohammed,
I never knew that Meditating could do that, but it makes sense. You are opening your mind up. I have friends who meditate successfully and suggest it to me. But, we are all different. I do go onto youtube and you're right, it does help. I can't be on youtube 24/7 though. (=

[drinae]

I'm no expert but I doubt that regular meditation (just sitting still and focusing on your breath or something like that) could cause those things. But of course meditation doesn't necessarily work well for everyone. I've been learning about mindfulness and meditation and it sounds like a good approach for me, but others may feel differently.

And of course, hi there and welcome, though I feel presumptuous saying welcome because I haven't been here long myself. But it seems to be pretty quiet here anyway. (I like coming here because it makes me own anxiety feel better even if for a moment, to think that I could try to offer a word of comfort to someone else... a bit selfish, yes). Sorry to hear about your mother, that must have been a painful experience and anxiety is understandable. I hope you can find someone you can turn to, even a doctor or therapist if you think that might be helpful to talk about the feelings associated with your mother's passing.

[Mohammed Nasreldin]

Meditating opens up your mind eye (pineal gland) or 3rd eye which will allow you to see above reality. The mind eye opens your imagination so high that you cant handle it no more and for life time. So you can do exercises and if you have school you can go and talk to your friends and share your stories you will feel good.