Confusion about what/how I feel.

[wuvoxis]

I used ativan (name brand) 7.5 years ago when my mom passed away... some people say to use it as soon as you feel the anxiety coming on but I wouldn't agree as you definitely don't want to become dependent on it. I don't become addicted easily and got to the point where I would take them and go to work just fine lol... but I never took more than 10s (I weighed about 115 then... 105 now). What strength did they give you?

I'm definitely not a doctor but my advice would be to take it on days where you have multiple attacks and are left feeling exhausted and needing to sleep or midnight panics. I think your concern with the addictive nature is a healthy one though and definitely don't feel obliged to take them. If you can get through without that's the best strategy IMO

It's just 1 mg tablets. Also, sorry for the super long delay!
I'm actually back at a place with decent internet now, though, so these massive delays should no longer happen.

I've been avoiding them for the most part.. I don't think I've taken one in a little over 2 weeks, and before then was almost a month I think.


Something I've noticed now, though, is this... My sources of anxiety have changed a bit, now focusing more on the fact that everyone's being completely screwed over with hours where I work.. I have 8 hours this week and that's it.
With this fact I've started feeling a small bit of what I'm assuming to be acid come up. I also can't help but take a deep breath and cough every now and then (then, as mentioned before, check for that small bit of blood to find none like normal).
I've also noticed that my chest pains are WORST right after eating.. no matter what I eat most the time. At times, too, I actually end up bringing up a small bit of a meal with a small amount of what I'd assume to be vomit >.> It's always just a small amount, though.. Kinda odd.


On another note, though, I do plan on ATTEMPTING to get in shape a little bit and actually just got a FitBit Flex as a motivator today.

Edit: Huh. Turns out that you can get rewards points at walgreens for walking with this thing.. 20 points per mile. If I walk enough maybe that'll help pay for those rescue remedy things over time >.>