Sometimes I hang out with friends and do things like go shopping and stuff, but I feel like I get home and I think about the time that I spent and I don't really think that I had a good time or a bad time. I just felt like I spent time with them and that was that. I don't know if this makes any sense. I guess sometimes I'm just so focused on my anxiety and lately my anxiety hasn't even been that bad, but I've been experiencing derealization for a while now and that's about the only symptom I've been experiencing which is a bit annoying. I think the derealization makes me focus on not feeling real and so I can't focus on my friends or other peoples' feelings. Sometimes I feel really selfish like I'm only focusing on my feelings because that's what anxiety is all about, right?
A couple days ago I attended a wedding with my boyfriend. It was a really beautiful wedding, but when I got back home I kinda felt like I didn't have a really good time, but I didn't have a bad time either. I just had...time. Sometimes I think I feel like this because all of my experiences in the past feel like dreams a bit. Nothing feels like they 100% happened even though I know they did. Is this common with anxiety? Or derealization or something? I'm kinda lost on this. :/