Thank you Jessed for your reply. I'm glad to hear your free again for sure.
My obsessive behaviours over the last few days whilst she is away are checking Whatsapp to see when she was last online. I had texted her in the morning and although I shouldn't have expected a reply as we were signing off with love hearts..... When I could see that she was suing whatsapp throughout the afternoon but not replying to me .. the anxiety kicks in..
I can see that this is ridiculous and that I need to leave her to do as she pleases ... to set her free..
I have had probably a years worth of 2 different cognitive therapists but that didn't seem to touch the sides .. Also I was prescribed drugs that didn't help at all either..
Funnily enough I am feeling much easier right now .. I don't know why .. I made myself get out of the house and go to the shops ..
My girl tells me that she loves me .. Shes currently paying for the couples therapy that we have just started .. And she takes me back after all the trouble and pressure and embarrassing digital stalking ..
So I feel I should know that I really don't need to worry about her being unfaithful ..
Maybe just talking on this forum has made me a bit easier ....