Well its been a while since I posted this originally.
Since then I have had Therapy, and prescription drugs .. and still I sit here with that huge anxious pain..
My relationship has been on & off with my partner so many time now its ridiculous.
At present it is on .. But she is away in Ibiza and I have returned to 100% anxious .. unable to eat, do anything apart from watch films, or find the strength to go out ..
What I would really would like to know .. is will I be like this forever? I feel so weak and broken and damaged ..
I have a lovely daughter and a close family ... if it were not for these, I would definitely end my life ..
As I am just so sick of being crippled with anxiety and unwanted intrusive thoughts and feelings.
It really is running & ruining my life ..
I have just started to see a new therapist but I feel totally unable to control my thoughts and checking behaviours..
Its ridiculous and I feel totally lost and overwhelmed all of the time...
Any chat or questions or advice would be fully appreciated ..
I came back on here as I feel totally alone with this now ...
Andy