Im 16 and I'm terrified about being a lesbian. I don't want to be, but I'm afraid I might be and I'm just in extreme denial. I have nothing against gay people, I just don't want to be one. I start to feel this way when I'm hanging out with another girl and suddenly I imagine making out with them and it seems pleasurable. Then sometimes I imagine having sex with them and it doesn't seem that bad. I get so much anxiety about my reaction to these thoughts that I try to avoid anything that might trigger them. I'm afraid I might not be able to control myself, and I'll make a move on them or something. I try to avoid situations that make me feel that way because it freaks me out so much. I've never been in a real relationship with a guy or a girl, and I've never done anything sexual with either (aside from kissing boys, but it's just a peck). That being said, I want to be with boys, I feel like it's new and exciting, but I also feel sort of aroused when I think of being with a girl. I'm so confused and it's literally tearing me apart. I get anxiety about a lot of things, but my sexuality is by far the worst. I want to like men, but I don't know if I necessarily do. I find the male figure particularly attractive. One possible explanation about the fantasizing is maybe it's just easier to picture myself with a girl because I've hung out and been around girls a lot more than I have with guys in my life. I go through what I like to call flare-ups with my anxiety. A thought will trigger it and my mind basically goes off the deep end, like it is now. But before I was fine and convinced I was straight and I was past worrying about my sexuality. I felt particularly attracted to guys and I would be fine. It's these stupid thoughts where I imagine myself with a girl that make me go crazy. I start doubting myself and convincing myself that I'm a lesbian. But the thing is, I really really don't want to and it stresses me out thinking about it. When I get these thoughts I feel like my mind just broke out my control and went on a manic and uncontrollable rampage. I know it sounds dramatic, but I don't know how else to describe it. Someone please help me I'm so confused and restless it's ruining my life. I don't know maybe it's just hormones.