
Originally Posted by
Im-Suffering
How cute is this ?
Nice reply av1988.
Congratulations on having the post with the most - self deprecating content i have ever seen DewDrop ! And also the cutest, most sincere, charismatic person ive come across. Very stylish writing, in a negative way, but endearing. The lack of paragraphs, and the typographical emphasis (purposefully) makes it, and you all the more lovable.
Sure you have a flair for the drama. Everything is so over the top in your life you cant stand it.
You actually hate being you to such an extent that you wind up in love with yourself.
Keep up the writing, study literature and take side classes from anywhere teaching you anything and everything about it - join local authors groups, writing groups have fun ! You know you love it ! Jump in the deep end.
Once you find your place in the world, all else will make sense. Inner beauty attracts people to you, so keep an eye open. Among all the self hate in words and descriptives - radiates a beautiful spirit within. This radiating inner person-hood overshadows whatever is perceived as a lack in either appearance or spoken word/thought.
Let go of dogma associated with religion, live (find) your own code of ethics, you see. Examine your value judgments about who you are and the ideology taught to you about the world and your place in it. Release any false ideas in the mix or beliefs that make you feel badly about you.
You are not innately sinful or somehow defective - the religious starting point of 'born sinful' supposes a life long journey to get out of some hell that you were born into, that the person you are is not good enough - you see. Nothing could be further from the truth. But, you must believe that as deeply as you believe it is true. Regardless of which or both parents whose influence instilled these ideas about reality. Parents are not god's, even though they might as well be.
Hint: Whenever you feel bad, that feeling is only there to let you know it leads to a false belief, that once released/healed, you can feel good ! Do you understand?
Now, develop your own self and personal power, by acting as if - you are already in possession of every characteristic you wish you had. Beauty, charm, grace, love, wealth, health..
Good. End of post.