Lauren,

why is it happening to me? When will this stop? Will it ever go away? How much longer can I carry on like this?
I ask myself those questions a lot when I'm scared or depressed. I'll bet most of the people that come to this board do. I don't have the answers yet. I know in my heart it will stop even though it feels it won't, especially when I'm depressed. I see evidence of slow change. Yeah, tough questions.

How bad does your anxiety get? Do you get panic attacks? Are you able to watch the anxiety, let go into it at all? I often seriously lose my mind, can't think at all, just panicky thoughts. Is it like that for you, or something different?