I feel like I can't carry on with this anxiety

[Im-Suffering]

I'm 19 and I've been suffering with extremely bad anxiety since a tragic event happened in my life.

What was this event. You cant heal the symptoms and go on with your life, joyfully, until you heal the emotional cause.

What was your life like pre-event? can you remember your thoughts, ones related to how you feel now? Another words, did you ever, before the event, have any of the same phobia's, anxiety, thoughts as you do now, even in mild form (where you didnt give much attention to them).

What are your parents like (or your caregivers, the people that raised you) - did they have health anxiety in any form?

In the past 18 months, how deeply did you delve into this event (to release and heal the trauma, shock) with therapy? (not CBT).

Just some questions to answer, inside yourself, you dont have to here in public. Know the emetophobia (vomit fear) are triggers only, its not the cause, it may as well be anything - fear of closets, planes, but whatever fear you choose will be most personal and effective at pointing to the real underlying issues unique to you. For example your weightloss and personal issues point to a denial of life itself and a form of suicide. Which in many cases is only recognized if one ends their life quickly, you see. Those that take years to do it are not officially termed 'suicide'. If one dies after 30 years of chain smoking -

or a period of time starving the body of its vital life force and nutrients -

it is not considered suicide, but was just as effective as a rope.

With all the lamenting, brooding, and withdrawal, suppression, you deny the basic natural expression of the mind and body, the innate exuberance every creature has toward health and living, so ofcourse your mind, mentally speaking is not going to leave you alone, until you heal it.

It is therapeutic (the triggers) in that they are a built in impetus (inherent) to correct any negative thinking.

What you are expressing is of a small child starving for attention and love. Strong tendencies of emotional abuse and neglect, abandonment which could have been triggered by this traumatic event. say for example if a person dies who was this childs security blanket, who showed love and caring, and once gone, she is left emotionally empty around those others who would and have invalidated her.

Now, your only 19, so I ask you to put on your thinking cap here (this is not your general everyday post), or bring this message with you to therapy, and start the real work, not just an attempt to bury and cover it up. CBT for example is most beneficial if the patient is 'willing' to get back into life. Has a desire, you see. And so one must be ready for change (to move on), mentally.

In the short term, medication can help, not to dumb it all down, but to offer some relief while you explore the issues in a calmer state, not so much worried over the health, so the attention and focus can be applied to more beneficial areas.

So youve got work to do, i will send you well wishes along with this message. Without sounding pompous i advise you to read through it a few times for your own good.