It's Been a Two Years Now

[Im-Suffering]

Sentence by Sentence :

'She's also convinced that my anxiety correlates to my epilepsy'. - She would be correct, although it is the reverse - the epilepsy correlates to the anxiety - Any physical expression is a result - it does not cause the mental, but supports it, like a good theory.

'The problem is that I have told myself similar things' - you cannot override your beliefs, that's why self-suggestions for the most part do not work. The underlying conflicting belief is too strong, in the sense that it is an unchallenged fact.

'but what the mind wants, the mind doesn't always get'. - The mind (in your terms) always gets what it wants, and what is doesn't want - meaning you get what you concentrate on, and expect.

How do you see me succeeding in that? - Change your beliefs.

The belief is the seed of the human psyche. The thoughts and emotions spring forth from the belief, shaping what we will call a 'world view' from a very limited lens. The ego blocks out any conflicting evidence to the contrary. This allows humans to focus intently on that which they want, and ultimately create it. Now, the paradox you see, is that the intense focus often is upon what you do not want, to which the inner self creates that to corroborate with the thought (backed by emotion). So if the belief is false, you see, or negative - destructive - that will manifest in your experience.

"I am no good" is a core belief from childhood, for example, where through suggestion from others, and from the self, the child decided he does not deserve, and overall, from an innate standpoint, he was born 'evil'. Not to forget religious beliefs of the family, the overall dynamics.

Now as this child grows into himself, his whole experience (physical and psychological) will corroborate his belief in s series of broken relationships, failures and general thoughts about who he is - he would hate his life, but at the same time find his hands tied to do anything about it. He would feel ashamed, guilty, and generally clueless as to why things are happening in his life. You see, the belief is unconscious at that point, so he is on auto-pilot. He does not say, as an adult, "when I was 6 I was told I was no good because I did not follow directions ! This does not apply to me now !", No ! He says to himself "look at my life, I am no good !" And so the belief system is insidious in that it does not show itself.

Unless he endeavors to look, period.

And so you, must endeavor to examine your beliefs. By following the fear and emotions that you are usually to fearful to face, and going straight into them. The thoughts that you think are evil or against you, or 'unnatural' you must go straight into. The epilepsy is one form that suppression takes, physically. So the mental manifests itself, physically through the body - what the mind has been repressing, those energies are powerful - energy cannot be diminished, scientifically speaking, or extinguished, or held back - it must move, you see. And so by suppressing creativity, speech, concerns, repressing problems (psychological), by becoming a martyr, victim, doormat, for the sake of being 'good' or controlling self-resisting inclinations to better self - for example - the body 'acts out' and releases the energy, epilepsy can be likened to a storm where after the winds and lightning have died down, the cool air and fresh breeze - the electromagnetic conditions have altered, the air has been renewed and the energies allowed to release - In those terms, the body of earth is like the human body, you see, and when its energies are built up - you have 'natural' conditions - hurricanes, earthquakes - storms, which are as therapeutic to it, as a seizure is to you -

I will not discuss the human experience under those natural earth conditions (during a hurricane) it is not relevant here. But know, no one is in a storm or any natural 'disaster' by accident.

Now, the epilepsy will to a large extent dissipate in proportion to the releases you do mentally. By going into the beliefs, fears, unrealized 'failures', using the negative otherwise ignored or shoved away feelings to bring you into the light - revealing the self underneath and the way out - releases and belief changes are emotional, so you cannot talk your way out of them, you must put self in the imagination back into the child body and relive the trauma, with the intent of learning the TRUTH. The truth was that, using our example above, the child was being difficult, and would not follow SAFETY DIRECTIONS, you see. But to the undeveloped mind, he believed he, himself, at his core was 'bad' because mom was very unhappy with his behavior.

Do you see how the belief an adult lives with, can be a false idea from childhood ? This correlation will come in the form of epiphanies as you do the work.

I have been very clear lately, in regard to receiving my messages, and this one as I read it back is excellent.

[gypsylee]

Hey I hope you like The Power of Now. I think some of what he says is a bit much, like it didn't change me to the extent he reckons it can lol. But some of the stuff about the "egoic mind" and how it tries to control us is some of the best psychological insight I've read. I took all these notes from that book and I read another one he wrote, so I was pretty impressed. I just hope you don't get too weirded out by it haha. I'm going to go and look at those notes now..

[Im-Suffering]

Hey I hope you like The Power of Now. I think some of what he says is a bit much, like it didn't change me to the extent he reckons it can lol. But some of the stuff about the "egoic mind" and how it tries to control us is some of the best psychological insight I've read. I took all these notes from that book and I read another one he wrote, so I was pretty impressed. I just hope you don't get too weirded out by it haha. I'm going to go and look at those notes now..

Some additions, deeper into the insights -

Ego is the looking glass to which experience is filtered along any given line back to the inner self. The ego is a portion of the inner self and not separate. It springs forth from consciousness to deal specifically with physical reality (it is not itself physical or part of the brain). The ego forms 'beliefs' along the timeline and those are the 'color and depth' of personal experience. All physical evidence to the contrary of a belief system adopted by ego will be purposefully shut out of the file system it uses. The purpose of ego is to judge its position in physical reality clearly and send those conclusions to the inner self who in turn creates and forms reality itself. The ego then gets to see how it has done, usually through trial and error. Now when ego shuts off communication with inner self, no longer a two way street - then the full burden falls on itself. But it does not create, it interprets and thus it falls into fear of its tomorrows cut off from the all knowing side, so to speak, the nourishment it receives from the inner self.

Now you cannot kill off the ego permanently, since it is an attribute of inner self, Another will spring forth, more fearful than the first because its birth was dependent on the previous ego's death.

You are meant to clearly assess your position within physical reality. The ego is not rigid, unless you allow it to become that way -

The physical brain is made of the same 'stuff' as all other 'matter' (earth stuff) and so it interacts with ego's interpretation of the reality inner self has created. The brain for example is responsible for physical 'time' through its neuronal structures - when you no longer have a brain, you will not operate within the confines of time.

Ill end it there.

[gypsylee]

Some additions, deeper into the insights -

Ego is the looking glass to which experience is filtered along any given line back to the inner self. The ego is a portion of the inner self and not separate. It springs forth from consciousness to deal specifically with physical reality (it is not itself physical or part of the brain). The ego forms 'beliefs' along the timeline and those are the 'color and depth' of personal experience. All physical evidence to the contrary of a belief system adopted by ego will be purposefully shut out of the file system it uses. The purpose of ego is to judge its position in physical reality clearly and send those conclusions to the inner self who in turn creates and forms reality itself. The ego then gets to see how it has done, usually through trial and error. Now when ego shuts off communication with inner self, no longer a two way street - then the full burden falls on itself. But it does not create, it interprets and thus it falls into fear of its tomorrows cut off from the all knowing side, so to speak, the nourishment it receives from the inner self.

Now you cannot kill off the ego permanently, since it is an attribute of inner self, Another will spring forth, more fearful than the first because its birth was dependent on the previous ego's death.

You are meant to clearly assess your position within physical reality. The ego is not rigid, unless you allow it to become that way -

The physical brain is made of the same 'stuff' as all other 'matter' (earth stuff) and so it interacts with ego's interpretation of the reality inner self has created. The brain for example is responsible for physical 'time' through its neuronal structures - when you no longer have a brain, you will not operate within the confines of time.

Ill end it there.

I think the author would say the problem is that in the vast majority of people the ego has become rigid