Originally Posted by
namaste87
Well hello.
I have met a girl who I like very much, and she likes me very much to. Since I don't need to worry about if she likes me or not I worry about other things - that she's secretly a crazy and evil person, or that my anxiety will fuck everything up. I'm afraid that my anxiety will scare her off, or that I will have to much anxiety when we meet and not be able to me "myself". Everything scares me, sometimes (no, quite often..) I feel scared of her too. Sex scares me, being in love scares me, to show my core to someone scares me.
Right now I am going through a personality disorder investigation and sometimes I have suicide thoughts. And I feel like.. I can't fall in love when I'm going through all this. But she is very special to me, and I don't want to tell her we can't see each other anymore cause I am ill. I guess I am very scared of being rejected if I show her this side of me.. I am so very very afraid to scare her off.
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