Thank you for your answers! It's really hard though not to be afraid of my anxiety, because it has ruined so much for me in my life, my actions caused by anxiety has scared off a lot of people, cause I freak out and seek to much confirmation. I get a bit obsessed and all the fun goes away cause I get stuck in a spiral of seeking confirmation. Hah, yesterday I wrote that "I know that she likes me so I don't have to worry about that." But I do now... cause of little things that happened that I read "she will dump me now."

It is so very very hard not to fall down in to this deep hole that is filled with panic, anxiety, catastrophic thinking. That everything will go to hell this time to, like so many times before.