Hi Louis, I read what you said and I wanted to say that you're not the only person who has felt these feelings. I feel like I understand all of the stuff you've said. Panic attacks are hard to deal with, especially at work, but I think the worst thing is being unable to function because one thought is so dominantly upsetting. ;/

I hope you are able to find a solution, something that lets you live in peace, through all of this. Try to get more sleep, that can really help calm the mind when you're feeling stressed out.