I have given you much here on a message board. You understand. But enough where if it 'clicks' you have the foundation for the work because I have given you understanding of the workings of it all. A basic course study todaySo print the whole thread and reread it.
I mentioned acceptance, and that means utter acceptance. And that can only come with understanding. Also in case you have never done 'belief work', know your beliefs may need examining for validity. Another words you have childhood conditioning, beliefs you took on as facts over the years that may not be serving you well in your current life. For example you may hold "I am unlovable" from childhood. and act upon this unconsciously as your truth. You can see how this can cause much havoc, you see. Only through self examination then can you uncover what has been hidden.
Now im not correlating beliefs with your anxiety, but usually the two go hand in hand. Other than the immediate shock of a divorce or health issues, or a long standing problem unresolved which can one day manifest into anxiety disorder, you see. The long brooding over your life, etc will one day sensitize the body and you have the origins of the nervous 'condition'
No matter what starts it, remain in the 'now' you see. and follow what we have spoken about. Be patient, allow time, and ease into your belief work as they come up. I mention beliefs because you said you tell yourself "everything is ok" when indeed you feel that your lying to the self and thus everything becomes worse. Affirmations or self suggestions must take root in something.....But that is a conversation for a therapist, you see.' In the meantime it is best to affirm health, and that everything is ok, if it is done as a game. A childs game where you consciously say, "For some time I will picture health and wellness, I will do this playfully, not to deceive self, because in 30 days if I feel better great ! But if not, I have lost nothing". This way it is not a lie so to speak in which case the mental conflicts would prevent progress, but as a game you can begin to learn to think aright, being true to your feelings in the meantime. Honoring them, good or bad.
Learning to think aright is one of the main purposes in every human life.
I have given you enough today....for a good start. Keeping in mind the clean bill of physical health.