intoducing me

[KellyMN]

ok, So my story.. as a child I was a worrier and I got scared A LOT. When I was 17 I got diagnosed with anxiety/panic/depression. At that time I had no idea what anxiety was and I was certain that the diagnosis was wrong and there was something else wrong with me, there had to be. I had been on and off medicine many times.. It would get better for a bit and then would come back. I have had definite avoidance behavior and at times it has been very difficult just to get by. I am now 37 and have 2 beautiful children (divorced for 3-4 years) and now all of a sudden it is back and I am dealing with it by myself. I questioned whether it was anxiety and had the doctor check for many things. I am frustrated with myself for not being able to get past it this time. I know better. I should know better. I am getting lost in my head and in my worries.. I am irritable and short with my kids... I know that I need something to help me. I am starting back up on meds which in itself is causing me great anxiety.. I just really need to talk to people who know what it is like.. I want to know that I am not alone and talk to someone who I can just vent to and cry to... my kids are at their dads tonight, so I am home alone.. just took my meds and just.. waiting....
I am in an okay place in my life.. I have a decent job, I just bought my house.. I'm financially stable, fairly healthy.. I don't know why this is happening now. I'm frustrated, angry, sad.. I'm trying to stay hopeful.... but it's hard..

[gypsylee]

Hi Kelly

I'm 41 with one child (13yo girl).

This forum is a great place to vent and talk to people who know what you're going through. I find that's a huge part of dealing with anxiety and depression.

All the best,
Gypsy