Maxine

You have come to the right place. Like you who suffers from attacks, depression. i contemplated bad thoughts and I look at my children and say they need a daddy not an idiot thinking stupid ass thoughts. What values would I be teaching them if I kill myself. My kids have no daddy to brag bout or anything. I think it but I will never do it. unfortunately I think worse case scenarios which is destroying myself. I have fought for over 20 yrs with attacks to avoid medicine and drugs, but with therapy and drugs I will overcome these fears that I face and so can you. If we all work together we can do a lot. My wife says I am killing myself cause of my chronic attacks. And you know what she is right.

Enough about my issues. As Ryker said you need your time and treat yourself.