I'm glad my words gave you some hope. I know it can be so difficult without a good support system, definitely when you struggle with something so scary. But it will get better and you will live your life to the fullest It is just our brain playing tricks on us and eventually we take control back. You made a good step by talking to your dad. If your worried about it, you can always ask someone to back you up And if you need to talk, feel free to contact me any time.