So, woke up feeling a little shitty- but that isn't something new. Got ready and went in to the town to buy a my mum a birthday present, in the middle of the supermarket I begin having what is one of the worst panic attacks I have experienced yet. Normally, I might feel a few anxiety symptoms throughout the day, i.e. tight throat, sick feeling, aches and pains, irritability, etc. Other days when feeling more panicky than normal I'll struggle to breath, get very angry and worked up and inevitably scratch my arms to help me calm down. Right now I can't catch my breath, I feel like the walls of my house are closing in on me, I feel like I am going to die, my hands are trembling, I feel cold but warm at the same time and I'm really scared. I know it's all in my head, but I can't escape it, normally I'll turn to food until it dies down- that or I'll scratch my arms, but nothing's making it calm down, I feel like I'm going to be sick. I can't talk to my dad or my boyfriend about it because they don't understand, my boyfriend gives it the "just calm down" chat, and I know he means well and appreciate him for putting up with the burden that is anxiety. I don't even know why I'm posting this, I guess I just need reassurance that I am in fact not dying, or maybe some advice on how to make it stop
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