Oh welcome to the site, yes to be responsible for so many people would cause anxiety and depression in everyone. It does not mean that you are weak, rather the opposite
When you start celexa please start from smallest dose, even if the doctor did not say so. I know this from my psdoc. One week on the smallest, next week a bit higher, then maybe whole dose. There is a lot of side effect on the beginning, but it takes about 3weeks till you feel better. In mean time you have the Ativan. I think we have threads about it in Medication sub-forum
I could not take celexa I am on other meds, I do not get panic attacks right now but I have ativan in my purse. Always. Safety blanket)
Panic attack come from nowwhere..
I wonder...did you read about meditation? We have two threads one by Forwells, another by member Goomba.....