And imagine being that person, completely and utterly irreversibly emotionally abandoned by your partner. Literally not being able to be seen or received emotionally by them anymore, having no control over the fact that they have permanently forgotten you. Their spirit and soul and realness being forever inaccessible to you.

It would not only break your heart, it would shatter your self esteem and sense of trust and understanding in how human feelings and relationships work. I didn't want to be the person to do this to her. I'm not trying to screw her up. But I know it's happening so fast. And yet she is the only person in my life. I live with my parents and sister but she is the only person in my life outside of people I see a few times a week at work (I work at the Gap) that stimulates my mind. I have one other friend I see every couple of weeks who I go out with to the bar. But she just happens to be the one person I spent my life with. Before her I had a best friend/ex-girlfriend who I've since drifted from for too many reasons. But that's what makes this especially hard.