Tailspin - I'm moving in a few days but I've been waiting almost 4 years to move out with my partner so I'm a little excited (Its my first place) but no doubt it will add to my already stressful lifestyle! but I wouldn't say its major regarding moving to a "new area" that too isn't a problem, my partners lived here all his life - I met him and lived 75 miles away so after 3 years I've moved in with him and his dad and were just moving elsewhere in the same town, but I've been coming to this town now on and off for 4 years but as I say I've lived here since Dec, but finally getting my own place

NeverToo...Fear - I get what you're saying completely! Whilst its abit strange on my behalf, because I don't see my family, they live somewhat 75 miles away I don't worry, my mums been in Spain for a month and still I don't worry, for the past few years since my dad passed, my mum has these episodes were she "feels like commiting suicide" Still...I don't worry I know she won't..She's had depression for around 20 odd years but she likes a bit of drama every now and then and over-react's and say's things she doesn't mean! So I don't take anything too seriously from it! (Sounds really bad on my behalf but you've got to understand I've ran home sometimes from being with friends because she's told family members she's going to kill herself, and as I say I've ran home and at the time I wasn't seeing my good friends much because I wanted to stay home to make sure she's ok and she's been on YouTube watching funny video's laughing so I've been like what!?) So I don't know really but I don't worry about anyone in my family...just when my partner goes out but then again I live with him. Its even weird as I say about my family because I have a really weird way of thinking, If I see an old couple ect I think "aww bless, one day one of them are going to be left alone"
and its the same when I see old people get on the bus I wonder how long they have left..that's not normal right!?

I really like what you said about the souls yearning to be with on another, was really lovely


Marisa Tuffin - Its understandable why you would be abit unsettled, its a long long way away, but just remember there going to really enjoy themselves the reason you feel astho you could die ect is just because as you say you've got a viral thing, not sleeping is going to make you feel disorientated and not with it! and also over activity of the brain/Anxiety, worrying really takes it out of you, drains you! You will sleep eventually, your just exhausted by the sounds of it, Hope you start feeling better soon