Hey tailspin, thanks for your reply, theres not much I have the pc and ps3 but they dont help but I might get into bed and watch my favourite programmes, it sounds really lame but ive not had any opportunitys to meet people whilst living here, no work yet, I was on a training course but the people on it were idiots by idiots I mean 23 year olds encouraging everyone to make farm animal noises and to throw paper at people when the tutor turned her back, and there were 40 year olds actually doing it. Anyways that luckily only lasted 2 months, so I dont really have any friends up here yet, I know people but not to the point I would hang with them. All my friends live away where I moved from which I realized I dont socialize enough after someone asked me for help other day I felt good not only for helping but because I spoke to someone new, even if it was an elderly couple.

Im starting work experience next month and im going to put all my effort in, constantly spend ages putting pride into my appearance like I used to (i have a lack of interest in myself but then I drag myself down for constantly putting my hair in a bun and chucking leggings and a hoodie on) im going to make myself socialize with people I wouldnt normally and go in as the happy positive person everyone used to want to be around ect, its experience at a hospital and there will be work classes so I want to make friendships

I know I went on about something different in the end but I find this site really bringing out all my problems, I can just say it all and not worry and I know people understand, so the socializing thing just had to be said..in hindsight it made me feel better saying it >,<