Hi everyone,
I want to get advice on expressing what I still struggle with mentally to my psychiatrist but I am afraid of what might happen. I think about death a lot and much too often I wish I were dead. I also struggle with shutting off the flood of negative memories or how lame life is. Pretty much negative thoughts or such certainty that there is no hope. This isn't all the time but not a day goes by where I'm not affected by this in some way. Some days are better than others. Anyways, when my psychiatrist asks me if I have any suicidal thoughts or how my life is going I simply pretend as if life is fine and I deny having suicidal thoughts. I'm afraid that I'll be put in an insane asylum or have to notify authorities. But I want to be truthful so that I can get the help that I crave and maybe finally be provided a solution to my problems. I also feel a little guilty because I feel like I just need to deal with these problems myself and not be dramatic. Maybe I'm overreacting? I just don't know, any advice is welcome and thanks for taking the time to read about my issues.