I've been with this guy for more than a year now and of course at first it was all great and beautiful. I moved in with him and my son from a previous marriage moved in too, but we only have him half of the week. There's days when we're happy and great and days when we feel like we're over. But even in those days that we're happy in the back of my head I'm already thinking of the moment when we're not. Like waiting for the time we'll argue... I can't just enjoy the happiness!! I'm also usually just looking for something to be sad or angry about. WHY?!?!?? I HAVE NO IDEA. I AM MY WORST ENEMY. I want to be a happy person! If I'm happy, my boyfriend's happy. But it's so hard for me. I don't want to loose him. I want him to be the last man I'll ever be with. I feel like he'll get fed up with me one day and just give up.