Hello, I'm 19 and have a history of mental health issues, but recently my anxiety and OCD has intensified.

I was diagnosed at about age 15 with severe depression, and I also had mild anxiety. My main problem was my depression, but I did have some panic attacks. I saw a psychologist and was also put on Prozac (60mgs per day). After going on Prozac I improved immensely.

A few months later, my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer which she had to undergo radiation and chemotherapy for as well as a masectomy. This has resulted in her having to use oxygen and also use a wheelchair when walking long distances (eg. Shopping centre). I was OK during this, but I think now I am beginning to develop issues surrounding it.

This year I moved out of home into a rental with my partner. I am no longer on prozac.

Over the last few weeks I have begun to have intense fears of death/dying or becoming ill. These thoughts are obsessive and intrusive and disrupt the entirity of my day. Honestly, I DO NOT STOP thinking about it. It's driving me crazy, and I feel like I'm going crazy. I am starting to have small panic attacks, and I am constantly on edge and restless. I have had a fair few sleepless nights. I also fear getting old.

I am unable to live life 'in the moment' and I'm constantly thinking of what ifs.

I really hope that I will be able to combat this difficult time in my life with help from this website and I will hopefully also be going back to a counsellor and if needed go back on prozac.

Anyway, long story! But thank you if you read it. Hope to get to know you.