Hi everyone
Hope you are all well. I have just joined the site this morning as I need to reach out to someone about some issues I've been having.
I've always been a worrier, but over the last 2 years my worries and indeed my insecurities have reached a new level, to the point that I feel I'm close to not being able to cope.

The worries tie in a lot with my relationship with my partner. Most of the time it's a loving, happy relationship, but when things go wrong such as money worries, insecurities over the role of his ex's (I'm in a gay relationship and he used to be married to a woman, plus has another ex bf), I tend to panic a lot and get very insecure. Just to add, I am generally a very insecure person, especially when it comes to relationships.

This has led to extremely bad sleeping patterns (I haven't slept for 3 nights now), mood swings, arguments, aggressiveness from my part (verbally, not physically) and the constant feeling of helpelessness. As I type this I'm feeling so tired but can't settle enough to get into bed and try to get to sleep. Then this is impacting badly on the following day.

I'm also starting to experience physical symptoms such as irritable bowel syndrome and a general very panicky state.

I don't feel at this time that I can chat to my partner regarding this. I'm not exactly in his good books right now and don't feel I can approach him about it for fear of stressing him out too.

I just know I can't continue like this. I'm worried.

Thanks for reading.

Darrell