I just joined this forum, so this is my first post. I have problems and I dont know what to do to help myself. I have a terrible fear of death - the thought makes me shudder. I mean, when we're dead, we're dead! We're like, gone. It's so scary. This causes me to fear a lot of things, basically anything that could possibly lead to death. Rain could cause a flood, i could get trapped in an elevator, just simple everyday things that could possibly go wrong and lead to death, i get scared of. And anything that goes wrong with my body too, such as chest pains which lead me to fear a heart attack. Im terrified of going to the doctors or the hospital because I fear that they will tell me something terrible is wrong with me, which is why whenever I have my blood pressue tested, it is always very high because im terrified. I also have low self esteem issues but i dunno if that is relevent.
Could somebody please help me identify what is wrong with me and how to help myself. I havnt told anybody yet, although my parents do know that i dont like hospitals. I dont really want to tell anybody tbh. All answers are much appreciated thanks