The sad story of my life

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Hi everyone. I'm only 14. Life has been a b.... to me ever since I was born. I was sad and confused all of last year (6th gr). In March of last year the word depression crossed my mind. I didn't even know it was a medical illness at the time. I searched it in google and learned what I needed to. I went to a Dr and he diagnosed me with depression. I tried Citalopram (Celexa) and Sertaline (Zoloft) both give me more sucidal thoughts. Then I figured out I had Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder. I also learned I had OCD and GAD. I tried Lamotrigine (Lamictal), it only made me tried all day. Near the start of junior high, my anxiety got worse and I devopled Social anxiety and Panic Disorder/Agoraphobia. Excerise/heat trigger my panic attacks. Gym class is hell as a result, even had to leave and fake sick couple times. To make things worse I have no social life and in junior high no one understands or cares. Some call me emo. My parents aren't any help. Too busy working, too selfish, and too arrgoant. I post my this to not feel so alone with these problems. Anyone have any suggestions on how to help my anxiety? I tried Zrytec (Certirizine), thinking that a higher dose may be affective since its a major metabolite of Hydroxyzine. Had no to minimal affect. Anyone known of anything over the counter that would help? I also tried therapy, but that was just a waste of time and money. Anxiety along with everything else has made me suffer beyond what I can describle and is ruining my teenage years. Thank you to anyone who takes time to post to a kid in desperate need of help.*