I have suffered from panic and anxiety symptoms for about 9 years. Tonight I'm panicking, and experiencing sensations of high anxiety. Like I'm going to explode. And there's the belief that I can no longer trust anyone that I know. Any of my "friends and family"... None of them know me anymore, if they ever did. I absolutely detest my job. I have nothing keeping me wanting to stay where I am living. I want to leave and end up who knows where. It's time to finally start living out who I really am, in the world. And that's scary. I feel exceedingly lonely; yet I'm tired of compromising or concealing my true self in exchange for shallow companionship. I want to be authentic. I am angry and have anger issues, so I feel like I have to hide that in order to get along, to be accepted, especially in Christian circles.

Can anyone relate?