So obviously I have things and hobbies that make me happy in my life, but anxiety just has to jump in.
It's like, when I do something that makes me happy, my brain goes like: "Oh? You're having a good time and forgetting about anxiety? Here, get reminded of how you should always be anxious and that being happy is something abnormal now."

Whenever I'm happy I get reminded of how I'm not anxious at the moment, that I will be anxious again when I stop doing what I like and I do get anxious all over again.

Basically I can't enjoy myself and live in the moment of happiness without being reminded of my anxiety.
How can I just enjoy the moment? I don't want to be anxious while doing things that make me feel better.