Like, when I'm not anxious or I'm slightly anxious, I keep telling myself: "Why couldn't I just do that when I have a panic attack? It seems so simple. If I had a panic attack right now I bet I could deal with it." and I feel all good and stuff.

But once a panic attack does come, It's like I have a completely different mindset. I no longer feel that motivation, power, willingness and rationality I had before I had a panic attack. My mind keeps thinking I'm alone in this, even though I know I'm not, I think I'm dying, even though I know I'm not. It just won't listen.

Then I keep telling myself I'll accept the anxiety when it comes, but when it does come it's so scary and I immediately want to stop it. I did accept it and succeeded in it one time with one of my triggers, but somehow that time I had a lot of willpower. So if I did it then, I know I can do it again but sometimes I don't have that same willpower.

Right now I'm in my "calm" mode (still anxious but this is nothing compared to panic attacks) and I again have this mindset asking myself why can't I just accept it. Anyone else feel this way? I hope I explained it well.