I'm glad you can relate, means u totally get it. I like what you said about being comfortable around other prior to feeling comfortable with ur inner voice. A lot of people with anxiety don't understand that. Day when i'm feeling at peace with myself are days when i'm most social. You sound just like me i have my family really, they are my biggest supporters and my counselor i was with her all last year, she is amazing, i do talk to her from time to time now but its really because she thinks i'm healthy enough now to not have to see her every Tuesday and Thursday haha. I do miss her
Socializing can be really healthy for the soul but it damages the mind at times and really is a trigger of my anxiety. I'm doing better now.