Hi my name is Nick and i have been dealing with anxiety since i was 12 i have been off and on with my anxiety and i wish i could just go back to the days where i was care free and could do anything. When i was 12 my mom put me on medication and it worked a little bit but she didn't like the side effects that the medicine had on me so she took me off. Then when i was 18 i had to start back on the medication and it helped a lot i was living a full life i had a great social life and i was always going out hanging with people and hanging with family. But very recently my life went down the drain, about one to two years ago i started having a lot of problems, i like to think that it has to do with where i was working at the time. I was fine before i started working for a security company, this company had me station in North Saint Louis which is not the best of the neighborhoods, this neighborhood has lots of shooting and lots of police activity, and i guess the hours i worked for the company were not the best because i worked Fri - 10pm to 6am, Sat - 6pm to 6am, and Sun - 6pm to 6am. I like working there for a while because it was in my field of becoming a cop. But after a while i would start having panic attacks while driving up which was about an hour drive from my house. It came to one point where i had to pull over in a bad neighborhood where it felt like i was going to die, i was sweating real bad i felt like i was going to pass out and had to have my parents come and pick me up and take me home, it was one of the worst panic attacks i had in my lifetime. So it came down to where i didn't want to leave my house my mom had to beg me to leave the house and i would still refuse to leave the house, so she treatened me about taking me to a mental hospital, so i left and went to a therapist for her and it seemed to help a little, so when i went to my doctor and he started me on two medications clanzopam and a generalized anxiety medicine i can't think of at the moment, so i just went back about a month ago and he wanted to take me off the clanzopam and it did suck but i am glad i am off of it now because i feel more like myself. But i still don't want to leave the house because i am afraid i am going to have a panic attack in public and make a fool of myself again, so i am just going to work and coming home. I have lost friends because of this anxiety and i am stating to lose my family because i don't go to any events because i am just afraid to go out. I am 24 years old and should have a social life and want to live life to its fullest, so please help anyone.

Thanks,
Nick