Hi there. I'm pretty eager to get started with meditation. I've been trying on and off for years, but I typically end up breathing heavily, sweating, and grateful it's over. Meditation seems to demand I pay attention to things that I already pay give too much attention: my breathing, the sensations of my body, and my surroundings. I have a terrible compulsion to pay attention to those things anyway; it's one of my most potent anxiety triggers.

The sticking point is that I likely have ADHD, and the severe lack of mental coherence which comes with that, well... it makes it nigh impossible for me to make any real use of techniques like CBT - I simply can't think concisely enough to keep up with the negative impulses; I need focus, clarity and insight.

Any ideas, boys and girls? Meditation communities I've tried seem to be allergic to plain English and/or straight answers. They also tend toward circular logic, which is infuriating.