For the past 2 months i've been enduring some serious anxiety. Along with depersonalization. I'm finding it hard to be in a dark room. I need light of some kind, always. even when riding in a car at night. I don't like the thought of not being able to see around me. I fear dying. I fear being alone and spontaneously dying. I fear dying prematurely. I fear having an illness or a disease that will take my life, or hospitalize me. I just want to go through life without being pestered by my anxiety and feeling the adrenaline pumping through me. Or feeling this energy rushing through my limbs.

I'm honestly getting really fed up. But I care too much. I care too much to not worry about these things. Even being at work is a tough task. Even driving alone is a tough task. I have lots of avoidance behavior.
Ive actually gotten good at being at the grocery store. I also have awful sleeping schedule (4am-12pm) Because my thoughts keep me awake and Id rather keep myself occupied until i get too sleepy.

I just want my life back. I want to do all of these things that I'm afraid of. But when I become afraid, I can't shake it. Its just a thought of "go home NOW".
Nights are always worse. Im ruminating over these things till i can't anymore.

Any tips, and anyone with similar experiences can lend a hand to help me overcome this would be excellent. Thank you guys.