It's stupid, but...

[laoii]

I want to die because of jealousy.
I'm an artist. I try my best, but.. I always get ignored. Recently I discovered one person who's drawing skills are worse than me, but everybody loves them, they are super popular. And then I broke.
I don't understand. Why somebody who draws way worse than me gets support and attention I will never get. Why I am the one who gets ignored.

But on the other side I don't like how my art looks, how I look, I hate myself. But I also want to be liked.
I'm tired of this pain. I want to finally die but I'm too afraid of death and pain. But it hurts so much.
Help me. Please.