Hello. I am new. I have anxiety and obsessive compulsive disorder. I suffer from anxiety as long as I remember but it was not bad. Just periods of stress. It got worst like chronic anxiety disorder 3 years ago when I got sick with mononucleosis. That left me with traumatic experience due to my illness. I developed OCD for germs and stuffs. It got better but I still fear. Anxiety we'll I fear any situation which put me in danger. Being sick or traveling by plane, etc. I don't want medication due to the harm and addictive issues. But I don't know what is more toxic for the body. The stress of a panic attack or taking medication when I need it. I am married but my husband doesn't understand me so I have to pretend I am normal and nothing is wrong , while I feel I am dying inside. How sad is that. Life is not easy for me. But I love life I want to life a long life. Anyway I hope I can find people here who understand ad help with advice. I feel lonely sometimes and don't have anyone to talk to. I feel guilty for the way I am. I just move to another country because of studying and even tough it helped because my mind I busy. I still have lots of anxiety. I wish there was an anxiety medication that helps and is not addictive and no weird side effects. We'll I hope to find internet friends here that will help .