I've been going through a very rough time lately. Major episodes all the time. I don't know why but the thought of going to work. (Blackjack dealer in Vegas) scares the hell out of me everyday. I took my standard three Ativan today but woke up before work in sheer terror. I immediately took a .5 mg of Xanax. Calming a little, BUT WHY AM I LIKE THIS. I've read all the books, am on Lexapro and just started Lamictal. I know all the answers but one. When will it get better.