i'm not sure if i'm an odd-bod or if there is actual rational thinking behind this!
just been thinking there, and it's a thought that has entered my head many times before.
if i was to get help to help me combat my anxiety and other issues - then who the hell would i be without them?
i have had anxiety for all of my life - i know no different.
what if i couldn't cope not being me.
it would mean that i would completely change my whole personality - just to fit in to 'normal' society? i suppose it would be so that i could be happy too. but what if i'm not?
what if i end up so much better that i feel ten times worse?
i know that sounds irish, but what if that is the case?
what if i didn't like myself being the way i would be if i was changed?
what if i was different with my kids - but in a worse way?
what if my family no longer liked me?
what if my boyfriend no longer liked me?
i know i'm safe-ish the way i am now. what if i end up so confident i end up a right knob to the point i can no longer stand myself?