social phobia relapse

[guitarist]

Thanks for the reply! I know you are right, but somehow I am not able to really believe it. That it is ok to feel anxiety....I just can't accept it. Especially now. I feel really bad at the moment. Just stressed out. At the moment it is just as bad as the beginning of my relapse.... It just sucks. Hopefully my therapist can help me to recover faster than I do now. It's taking so long. I keep on thinking about what if I did that... I could have stopped it, but I just didn't see it and wouldn't believe I coulde have another relapse.... so stupid

[guitarist]

It's weekend and again I feel stressed out. It seems like every week something just needs to happen so I can stress out. It was doing a bit better. But every week I get invitations. Let's go out, let's have diner soon, etc.... I just don't want to tell them I have this problem, but it is hard just to cancel every appointment. Every invitation stresses me out and stops me from climbing up the hill. Luckely I am seing a therapist again, but it's so frustrating. I feel depressed and keep on asking myself why this is happening. I just want to live the way I did half a year ago!

[guitarist]

Finally I am doing a bit better. For two weeks now I feel more relaxt. For the last two-three months I was very stressed-out in the weekends, but now I am feeling more relaxt. I know I have a long way to get back, but I feel I will get better soon! I am really glad to notice it! It gives me hope again.

[joolz5108]

hey guitarist! I know someone else has already said it but I am in the same boat as you. For a while I was doing well, but in the past couple of months I have slipped into a depression that seems different from the other times. I used to talk to my mom about it, but this time around I feel more like a failure and telling her makes it worse. I can't even bring myself to go back to a counselor right now because it feels so much like I am failing. I get so nervous when I am invited out after work with coworkers that I usually decline the invitation with an excuse, but I feel guilty that they might think they are the reason why I am not choosing to hang out with them. I definitely know where your coming from, ugh! It's really frustrating right now.

However, It was a pleasure reading this thread and hearing someone else with a similar story as me that is starting to feel better. What have you been doing to get out of your 'funk'?

[guitarist]

Too bad you aren't doing well at the moment. What you are saying sounds just like me! I also felt like I was a failure, but you are not! Don't forget that. When I went back in therapy (three weeks ago) I felt like crap. Back again! But now I have accepted it and I am looking forward again. I have hope that I will get better soon. My advice to you is that you really should talk to somebody. It really helps!

What I did is the following:
Acupuncture
Taking magnesium 400mg
Mindfulness
And now I started therapy again.

I have a long way to go, but I have hope. Hopefully you will feel better pretty soon! Good luck! Try to be friendly to yourself, you're not failing. If you think you need therapy, just go for it. It's not a shame to go back in therapy.

[guitarist]

About two months later now and I am starting to get a little better again. I have gone to some friends again (twice). And I am a less stress out again. Going to work isn't a problem anymore. I eat every morning now and going to work doesn't cause any nausea anymore. I have a little more energy as well. I even think about working out again. But of course... I can't seem to be too happy about it, because I see the things that I can't do at the moment. And that frustrates me. It just takes so long for me to be myself again. I have something big planned in a couple of months and sometimes it stressed me out.... will I be fine before then??? I know I shouldn't give myself a deadline, but I just can't help it. I really want to achieve this goal. It just sucks sometimes...
Sometimes I think about the future and I don't feel to happy about it. I can't stop to think about what if I get another relapse. How can I prevent it.... I also have the feeling that I will never have a relationship because I am just too afraid for another relapse and that I haven't got enough to offer to woman. I don't know how to stop those negative thoughts... it's not really helping me.....