Let me start off by saying that I have a six year old daughter that is my WORLD. My husband and I have never thought that we would be a single child household. With my daughter being 6, and me being 33, we decided now would be a good time to consider #2. I do have some weight to lose, and I'm working on that now. What is concerning me the most is there turn of my anxiety - with a vengeance! I've been on an ssri since my daughter was born (due to post partum). My anxiety has been pretty under control since then, with the exception of some isolated episodes, each lasting 2-3 weeks. What's striking me hard this time around is health anxiety. I'm terrified of dying and leaving my husband with two children. I'm afraid that I wouldn't want to be left alone with the baby because of fear of something happening to me (dying) and the baby being there alone until someone found us. It would break my heart to think of not being able to have another baby, but I'm afraid that the fear of dying is going to take that away from me. At the same time, it's not realistic to think that I can have a baby and never be alone with it! I'm even get nervous when I'm alone with my 6 year old (like now). The only thing that makes it bearable is knowing that she is capable of calling 9-1-1, or running to the neighbors house. I'm so sad and afraid, what do I do?