hi everyone, I am new here. I am so tired of this constant battle with myself. I have pushed myself time and time again and yet I always find myself hiding. I am agoraphobic, I have pushed all my friends away, except my boyfriend, i have destroyed everything because I am scared. It is getting to the point where I am completley home bound, I very rarely leave my house and if I do, it takes all of my energy from me and I am left with Fatigue, this is just really hard, I am looking for somepeople that are where I am and are getting better or people who were once where I was and have overcome this. I just feel like it is who I will be forever, like this is the new me, and I just dont want this to be true. Please any suggestions would be great.