Hey guys sorry but this is a long story!
So ive been what I now believe a hypochondriac for about 7 months now. First started with my moles in April don't know what bought it on but I have always had a lot of moles on my body and never bothered me then one day I looked at them and thought "why are some different shapes?" and started researching melanomas.....
Went to my doctor to have them checked and he asked the routine questions... Noticeable changes, itching, bleeding of which I had none so he said to take photos and check every few months to see if any have changed... great anxiety over right? wrong!
The next thing I had was a bit of redness on my cheekbones in May, the demon that is google said lupus amongst many other diseases, went to the local walk in centre as I was so worried and couldn't wait for an appointment silly nurse told me she didnt know but possible shingles! and gave me antibiotics took a weeks worth and went back to walk in centre as it hadnt cleared. Got to see a doctor this time who laughed at the fact id been told shingles and said its hardly noticeable possibly mild seborrhoeic dermatitis and gave me some steroid cream which took the edge off it. Then once again best friend google came into play, seborrhoeic dermatitis = yeast overgrowth = hiv/aids patients... great now I had HIV.
Went to a clinic to get tested for HIV, (only ever had 2 sexual partners and both in long term relationships) they basically told me do you know how likely you are to have HIV? and told me id more likely win the lottery I had the test done week later came back negative! whoopee problems solved... oh no
couple of weeks later developed a really bad case of laryngitis could hardly talk... more antibiotics, cleared up only I noticed a bump inside my mouth slightly smaller than the size of a pea... mouth cancer! After multiple doctors prescribing me antibiotics I ended up getting a referral from my own doctor to go and see a maxillofacial surgeon in august. Went to see him who poked and prodded asked about symptoms of which i didnt really have any (at the time) and told me it was either a mucous retention cyst or a bit of scar tissue from a tonsillectomy I had as a child and its probably always been there once again I was relieved for the time being.
Few weeks later the death of my uncle with stomach cancer, I get home from the funeral and look in the mirror at my throat. Back of my throat is full of tiny bumps smaller than the one in my mouth, "OMG he was wrong, it was mouth cancer and its spreading." Again multiple doctors telling me theres nothing wrong with my throat and by this time my own doctor is fed up telling me that its in my head stop worrying otherwise you will need counselling. This was not reassuring. After googling over and over I start to get stuffy noses everyday and a constant feeling of needing to hock rubbish from my throat to no avail.
Then I go out one night and get really drunk with friends hadnt had a drink in so long because I was always "ILL" that I was hammered. Got in and felt sick as a dog and in the usual fashion stuck my fingers down my throat to throw up, once again bam my world turn upside down after seeing blood in the toilet... never thinking that i had caught my throat while sticking my thingers down and it was tender with all the hocking i'd been doing. Now I had stomach cancer/throat cancer.
From this day on I had symptoms that would come and go, pains in the left temple area being one, sore throat, stuffy nose etc.
I had an obsession with making myself throw up to see if there was any blood in it... once or twice there was in which case I found it was coming from both sides of my tongue where they were catching on my wisdom teeth while wretching. Then I started focusing more on the stomach cancer due to it being in the family. After googling all about this I start getting abdominal pains that would come and go, and more frequent belching and my other symptoms would subside....
Then last week I did a lot of research on candida and though "Hey I fit the bill!" as im guessing any hypochondriac does? Did the candida diet for a week and researched some more and how many think its a scam and in that week I lost around 8pounds in weight and gave me quite loose stools throughout... which scared me into thinking I had stomach cancer once again.
Stopped the diet and the day after i find red in my stools all of a sudden im thinking colon cancer... since then the belching has subsided and i now have more flatulence.... great the red spots seemed to have tapered off since my doc did a rectal exam and told me theres no hemmeroids and that with the bleeding not being severe he doesnt think its anything sinister possibly down to the diet... but to stay in touch
Is this all really anxiety? my family think theres nothing wrong with me just like my doctor and I think its finally turning to depression now. Im 21 but how i talk im on deaths door everyday...