I know the title was a little broad but didn't know what to call it. I've been struggling with anxiety since I was a child (im now 21) however Its seems to have only gotten much worse in the last few years whilst at University. Anxiety really affected me whilst studying, sometimes I felt I couldn't even face going into the studio and talking to people. It got to the point where I went to my doctor for help he put me on citalopram however I don't feel it really does anything to help. I also started seeing a councillor through university and we did some emdr therapy which I thought was going well. However it seems my anxiety is only getting worse I've just finished university now, ( I got quite a low mark but I think my struggles with anxiety held me back). I feel pretty bad/ ashamed about it.
Im now trying to get some similar help back home and am waiting to hear back from the mental health people. But im sure my anxiety is getting worse I was meant to be at my graduation last week but I missed it because I had built up an image that something bad would happen or that id get laughed at whilst receiving my diploma on stage for some reason. Missing my graduation has made me feel so awful as I just couldnt bring myself to go. It really was the worse feeling ever and now im feeling worse about the seriousness of my anxiety then ever.
All in all I've joined this forum to hopefully see or hear from anyone who has had quite severe problems with anxiety and has been able to overcome it? and how did you do it? how long did it take you etc? do you still have bad days? Im worried about it getting worse, I don't know how ill ever be able to get over it. feeling very low about it all really.
if anyone has any hopeful experiences they would be good
ps sorry if this doesn't read very well