I am so fed up. i have been trying so hard to over come anxiety med free for the past 2 1/2 years. i feel absolutely horrible now days. I have every night migraines daily depersonalization and my stress is steaming out of my ears. I just don't know what to do anymore. My kids are suffering more and more and i am hurting more and more. Heart palps scare the shit out of me. I am constantly lightheaded and now i have gotten lazy. i am either on the computer watching TV or playing x box. i go to school online but the only time i really have a kid free time to do it is at night and of course i cant because of my headaches. everytime i get up to do something i feel my heart beating faster and faster. which makes me anxious. i know thats what my heart is supposed to do. Damnit i should even be worrying about any of this crap because i am only 26 and have 2 girls that need my attention they need there mommy. I have applied for temporary disability because i cannot drive or even begin to function in society. im so pissed and ready to give in to some type of medication. i am terrified of meds and wont even take anything for allergies. well sorry but i had to let it out. dont really feel better about it either.