Well, I was supposed to work last night Bartending at my old bar I worked at and I couldn't do it. Friday night I started to get nervous about it even though I knew all the customers and everyone was looking forward to seeing me. I feel so bad for letting the owner down for freaking out. I just wish I could've at least made it there. That's the hard part. I know that once I would've been there, I would have relaxed but it's the build-up to get there that stopped me. And I just came back from Reno!!! So I'm a little bummed about it. She's still willing to call me again the next time she needs help and she misses me a lot. I won't give up for everyone who reads these. I'm determined to do it next time. :roll:
will write soon
Chele